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2005-09-15T14:35:00.000+08:00

Hi readers!! ive moved!
http://www.progressively-seductive.blogspot.com

Sorrie..

2005-09-03T16:56:00.000+08:00

Sorrie fer the recent update guys..It was..t0o vulgar i guess..Cdnt stand it..
paham2 la pompan pms ey..niwae i got just a lil pix of my dance..ill update more ltr kies..

Crazee m0od

2005-09-01T18:22:00.000+08:00

OKie..just got home frm camp yesterdae and i was darn tired..slept at 8+pm..i enjoyed the camp but there were several pple i deter the most..frm nursing too..fark lah..mentang2 kau bdk january intake kau maner pey big fark siak?Kutuk orang numb0 satu sial..diri diri taknak cermin..puki algae betul..rambut dah lah mcm singa kelaparan..misai tak boleh maintain..and shes a gerl..kalah misai aku..smua kau nak org dgr ckp kau..shes farking in my grp..and my grp won the best grp award and yah..we were the best..but so wad?im so pissed off with tt bitch..and suring campfire, we did a musical tinggy,mcm storm..
and the rest at least ader their tempo and we really had to be observant to see the que to stop and all..tak mcm kau..u oways wan the ez one out..keje kau gendang tu baldi je.. dari starting sampai abis..kanina lah..i nvr want to see your farking face in skool lah..
aper??mentang2 aku telan aper org ckp pasal aku,aku bagi muker bb kau lebih tua dari aku, kau nak lanyak kepala aku ar??kau betina sial kau tahu tak?
blkg org tu,kau maki hamun dier, kau hina dier atas bwh, depan dier kau bermesra dgn dier..
puki tiang..itu namer nye puki kechot..aku nampak muker engkau aku toreh2 ar..
nasib cha cha was there to stop me..kalau tak dgn mulot kau sklai aku dah sumbat lumpuh..
enuff of tt farking bitch..
im so mad sia..and my bf isnt doing any good..fyne, he saes hes gonna change..2% improvement..lets look fer more..i gtg..update ltr..

im back..but not fer good..

2005-08-24T18:26:00.000+08:00

Hee..im back..but not fer good..im still using the pc at the internet cafe opposite my home..PC not here yet..Aniwae..fyne..i played bhind his back again..went to perform at Victoria..ok..i told him i was watching a theatre..but padahal..padahal..i was performing..It was a BLAST! i love it so much!!
especially the pump it pary..it was like so cool!!!
ok, i haf to admit..i didnt attend much of the dance practice due to some tyme constraint..
i did mix up sum steps..but overall,i i had fun!!
we were treated good..had a dressing room fer ourselves!!
ija did our hair..and we were like groovin,and i had so much fun!!!!
then, he fetched me home..poor ija, had to bring back my costumes and my hat..so as not to blurt out the secret to my guy..im being so mean am i??or am i not?? hee..
juz wanna haf fun..a lil fun..tts all..well, guys, i will change the url errors sum tyme kies..no worries ika..coz ive like got 1 hour oni..to clear my mails..and my fwenster..
oh my goodness..tak bacer2 ke my first account dah full??masih nak add2 org lagi..ish...
aniwae, i will definately update the photos wen i develope them kies..film blm abis..
well..exam is over!!!
skrg tgh vacation..29th till 31st i got camp at lim chu kang..
then, 5th sept dah start attachment!!..and im not ready..u get wad i mean?? mcm 3 bln blaja tak cukup gitu..im attached to changi hospital and GEYLANG polyclinic..
oh my..wonder hu visits geylang polyclinic..aniwae..i so miss my gerlfwens..
like..my fwens now, in ite..tak samer with wad kind of fwenship ive developed with nysha,fyza, ija and nabilah..they're juz..the best..and masing2 dah de kawan baru..i feel so..down..i dowan to be like u noe..be seperated by them..5 years of fwenship and we're not together..
i miss dunman..i mean the food..the nasi campur, the ayam boneless..and i miss my teachers..i miss the table we used to sit at..i missall the whinnig wen the queue is long..heeiisshh..
im so not committed to ite..wish i cud haf my fwens back..

Sick

2005-08-15T19:19:00.000+08:00

Im lonely..verrie l0nely..its been a year..im not sure if i can hold on much longer..

hee

2005-08-09T13:40:00.000+08:00

Okie, i noe i havent been posting much lately..been bz with skool and tt PC of mine is not working..
Dads' gonna but a new PC soon!!
weehee!!
Everytings gg fine..
Yesterdae was our 1 year anniversary and okie..ill update more ltr okies..
in then process of having a new blogskin...i seriously haf no tyme..
and we're performing fer dunmans' musical nite tis 20th august..
an he dosnt noe ive been gg fer dance practice..
evil me hah??
later guys!!

my skool life in ite

2005-06-23T20:31:00.000+08:00

Okie..im like at an internet booth at the plc near my area..my home pc is down so gonna be late to update..
btw, mondae, 20062005 marked the firat dae of my skool in semei..
it was..err..okie lah..my classmates..okie lah..(I MISS 5B!!!!)
the budak2 there..heiizz....no comments lah ey..
faham faham je..
but i didnt find fault i them so they didnt find fault in me..
My Class Advisor if far-nie and cute..
im studying bioscience and nursing stuffs..
interesting..tmro i haf a project grp tinggy..22 july is my first test..
22 august is my exam..fast sey!
haha..the food there is GOOD..
the boys there are crap..juz yersterdae me and rin kena stalk by these ite boys hu tracked us frm skool to tm..frm tm to bus interchange..
scary sia...
and they were like..."nurse..kawan sayer sakit buah"
Lamos with the capital L!
Wad oni..son of the bitches..kan aku dah start..
well..i meet the cliques inmy class..they are..
Arina,Alina,Khairiyah and Zakiah..buk is in another class..and so i didnt get a chance to meet him tt often..
i signed up fer dance(ssshhh! qayyum doesnt noe) and floorball..
hahaha..
see how it goes..
if they are like being conquered by minahs2..
forget it..im better off not having cca..but its kindda important..
heiizz..tak tahu lah cam ner..
okie dokie..i gtg now..Lata!

Last Dae

2005-06-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

Okie,im so dead tired..I went to IRAS building together with jess yesterdae fer VES Ceremony 2005..kewl...den i gotta report back at work..
asked jess fer permission if i could leave early..
qayyum sampai at 8+ den we had a tough talk in one of the rooms..Den, we proceeded to boon lay drive whr all my cuzzins are waiting..
Abg mahadi was doing well..ate mee goreng..den left at 10+..
met kak jannah and abg faz at ford road..planned fer kak sarah's big dae, which is tmro..den..4 cars and 1 bike(me and qayyum) went to tanjong pagar fer supper..tgh bbual2..makan2..den heard a loud crash..
an accident at the junction..WE, being the makcik kpos..went to look..
a police car was severely damaged..the dwiver was a malay..it collided with a cab..the dwiver was a malay too..The police man suffered chest pains..me, being the future nurse, stared and my legs were shaking..experienced a real accident with my own eyes..
Peramadics arrived soon after..blah blah blah, went back to our seats..
abg man decided to bring us to labrador park..bual2..ketawa2..qayyum was dead tired coz it was 4 in the morning and he had to go lau pa sat at 6am..
Still, he rode me home..reached home nearly 5am..talked to qayyum fer a while den dozed off..woke up at 9am..
munir was kind enuff to help me with the house work..left home at 12:10pm..
slept in the bus..and here i am..at work..its oredi 9+ now..tyme flies so fast..
and todae is my last dae!! made jess a "thank you" card..it was impromptu..
dah nak klua gi keje baru nak pack2 all my last yrs' art stuffs..
its kindda plain inside..last minute work..but hu cares? its the tot tt counts ryte?
haha..so tmro i haf to be at kampung ubi cc early to kendarat, i havent gosok my kebaya yet..ill post the pixes of kak sarahs' big dae if my home PC is "WELL"..
Cindy is working with me todae...shes so kind to help me outwith adobe photoshop..and im still yet to get the hang of it..
Mondae will mark my first dae in ite east collegue..
i havent bought my shoes..i oni haf the black pump shoe and i hope i can get away with it..hhmm..
Aniwae..tings are gg pretty well with me and qayyum..i gez we finally settled tings off last nite..but still, i noe, in daes to cum, mesti gado lagi..hah..
OKie, i wun be updating much hor..tgk ar kalau terlarat nak gi internet cafe opp my house der..okie dokie, gotta go..gg back with sis tonite..take cab home..yippee!

im not a gerL

2005-06-16T21:58:00.000+08:00

Todae is my 3rd last dae at work..mann..im gonna miss tis plc alot mann..
Tis work si so much better than any tt i haf experienced..
I met buk yesterdae at tamp interchange and go buy my skool uniform..
den, met granddaddie den off to work..i met a new fwen of mine..name is hazirah, live at teban gardens..shes in nursing oso..very approachable..nice..
Aniwae..life has been kindda hard fer me tis daes..well, first and foremost, my relationship, still not going too well..dowanna talk bout it..
Then..
my WORK!! heizz..im gonna miss juls and jess..a very NICE..and i mean it..
manager..more like my sister..share our opinions together..She treated me and juls to lunch at bishan tadi.had nasik kunyit..Yummie..
Jess is bringing me to the IRAS e filing tinggy tmro at novena..meeting her at 2:30pm den, after tt, ill be off to work, and im leaving early at 9pm..
Ive got cuzzies outing to abg mahadi's plc..
he's out frm the hospital now, resting at homie..So qayyum will be fetching me(if we're not at loggerheads) den we're off to boon lay..hhmm..den i heard abg man is gonna haf a gerun puting aftre tt..im not too sure if im joining coz ill be working on saturdae..My last dae..
My pay is not until next week, tts wad juls sae..i hope i can make it to tepak serih..on the 28th june ryte fyz??
asal tak buat on the 26th skali sey?? sumones' bdae mah?? *winkx*
Heh..Niwae, im xcited bout skool tis mondae, not xcited bout the plc or making fwens..but i cant wait to get hold of a book!
its seems like ages mann..
oh well..my shoes and bags and stationaries are still not packed nor bought yet..
haha..im waiting fer pay dae..
Aniwae..dunman dancers haf agreed to make a show fer teachers' dae tis year..but we juz need an approval frm zalinah..and khatijah haf yet to ask her..Okie now, i gta pack, knocking off oredi..
Aniwae, i wun be updating next week onwards as my computer at home is down, im no longer working at eClub and i tink im gonna be a lil bz with skool..
ill try update tmro and saturdae then, till then, im outta here..

stop!

2005-06-10T19:16:00.000+08:00

okie maidah..STOP! STOP browsing tru blogskins!!!!

Move it!

2005-06-08T17:31:00.000+08:00

Darn..wadever..i wanted to haf tis few weeks of memorable experience at work but it seemed tt im oways caught up with tis emotions..Im upset..No use talking bout it..I dowanna talk bout it..I cho0se not to talk bout it.
Happy 10 months anniversary dear..Time flies so fast..And yet, ure the same old you..temperimental,sensitive,possesive,control fweak(at tymes) BUT yet loving, romantic,cute, understanding and far-nnie..So izzit me hu haf yet to change?
Hhmm...Oh well..
Aniwae, his ord's soon..His last dae at jalan bahar will be tis fwidae..den he can start working with Cik Mah at Lau Pa Sat oredi..and hopefullie, he can send me dinner! weehee! Other than tt, he can..SURELY can gimme sum allowance..eheh..im running out of $$ oredi..i recalled, few months ago. wen i didnt haf fulus fer work..he was like..(handing $50 bucks) "Nie buat duit makan k?Cukup tak?"
Cold sweat mann..and i finished the bucks less than a week..Tt shows wad kind of a spendrift person i am..
Aniwae..its confirmed tt me and my family are gg to new york tis december..Mann, tts gonna be the 2nd tyme oredi..tot of gg Switzerland ke..Perth ke..Hah..Buddn abang planned out our outing oredi..and..gezzie wad? hes bringing me to the clubs there..hehe, i noe..dosa, but u noe..spore clubs are hhmm, how shd i put it..oklah..not as happening as those in U.S..so im looking foward to a once in a lifetyme experience..
yeehaa!

Okie,so tts abg haidher..the bechal0r..for yrs not back in spore..tinks hes happie now in the states..
Well,hes not done with sk0ol yet..in which university now, im not sure..
Ok folks, tts all for now!

and so..

2005-06-07T20:39:00.000+08:00

And so..im pissed..i dowanna talk bout it coz itll make me more darn mad..

=Lost=

2005-06-06T21:28:00.000+08:00

Met khatid at tampines mrt station at 10am..went to harbourfront, met detty..
bought a packet of cigarettes fer them..and wad the hell!? The storekeeper didnt believe im 18! Then i wanted to show him my ic then he said"ohk..ohk.."
Leerrr...Then went to Sentosa..We didnt noe which bus to take so we innie mini minnie more..took the yellow line bus, dropped at doplhin lagoon..den walked a bit to pahlawan beach..it was darn HOT..Changed into my tanky and shorts..ate..
intan and fariszan came..den yusrinah..den nysha and amalina..i was prohibited by qayyum to swim..so i laid there..tanning in the sun..UNTIL..i cudden bare the boredom and jumped into the sea..hahaha..yeah..i disobeyed him, fer once..
And i got my price ltr tt evening wen he came to fetch me home..C'mon lah..everyone else was enjoying themselves sey!And i did too! haha!!
They're all farnie bunch of pple..cool and non-minah's..i lioke!
Im tanned! Before i jump into the sea i mean..My bodie has got different colour strips, just like intan's..Its red..kindda hurt a bit..
but mind you, i didnt berendam with my tanky..i changed to a sleeveless tee which was soon..transparent wen i went down to sea..dread..(tt got me into bigger trouble with qayyum)
And qayyum spot checkedmy bag,found those clothes tt arent suppossed to be worn and yeah..i got a "memorable moment frm him"
And now..he cant trust me..Lets put it tis wae..he let me go off to sentosa, but i pijak hes kepala instead..did tings im not suppossed to do or wear BCOZ i promised him the nite before i set off to sentosa..Promise braker ull call me..but i wanna njoy mysef sey! arrggh!! but i did, minus the tyme home wen he fetched me..haha!

Nice pple we are!

Okie, i muz admit, we were trying hard to try patterns but we cudden be organised!
Haha..im s0o looking foward fer another enchanting outing with the gerls..well, next one is gonna be a cycling cum roller blading outing at east coast! weehee!!
OKies..snap snap..more updates coming up! Cheerio!

cRushEd

2005-05-31T19:37:00.000+08:00

Okie..i dun realli noe where to start..there's a lot of tings i wanna tell but all are slumped in one brain..hhmmpphh..first and foremost..my relationship, its not doing too well..u noe, hes having doubts bout me and all and im kindda tired of it..ive been saing the same tings to him fer the past 9 months plus like" i janji,i wun leave you" and "im still holding on" and "i love you still" but tings are still the same..he can do wadever he wans but i cant..i feel like screaming at him, but i noe i will get more of his giler wen i do tt..
heiizz..i realli feel sluttish now..hes out with his fwens..sampai pagi2 buter, and i cant disturb him and all..shit..
wen to meet up with my gerls last weekend..went to chill at coffee bean den start giving ideas bout our sentosa outing..nysah,fizah,detty,intan,ijah and me..we were giving tasks to one another..nysha and fizah got the ezier ones..hahah..den, he fetched me, went to town, gi lucky plaza, main arcade!! wo0ho0!
den his fwens came around 9+ den they wanted to play pool..but, i gotta go home oredi..and surprisingly, he didnt stayed up with his fwens,instead, he send me home and went to the hospital(had migrane)took an mc..spent the dae at home the next dae..
den..the next dae,which was yesterdae(my off dae) we went to nuh..ok..
tis reallie crushed my heart..my sisters' boyfriend, abang mahadi, met with an accident..he was the pillion..Zul,his best fwen was the driver..Zul didnt make it..but alhamdullilah,abang is in the hospital, getting examined fer different types of operations..his handsome face needs to be stiched,his leg is broken, the doctor inserted a metal screw in his leg fer support, his spinal bone cannot be detected by the xtray and tts terrible..i realli love him so much, i so want him to be part of our family..it caused my sister eyebags and swollen eyes..
me and my family went over to visit him and tears are forming in my eyes wen i saw him lying motioless on the hospital bed..he cudden move, he cudden eat coz he need to go fer an operation..he had a lot of injuries due to the impact of kena seret by the lorry..And tears are still flowing as i typed..he such a lovely boyfren, oni he can endure my sisters' attitude..and they've been together fer 6 years plus..i so want them to be together forver..i noe he wans the best fer both him and my sister..and im sure my sister will stay by his side..
ill go visit him again sum dae with qayyum wen we're both fwee..
ok..i dowanna get carried away..todae is my PAY DAE! but i didnt bring home tt much..juz $300+ coz i had to prepare my timesheet earlier..and $165 will go to qayyums' hp bills and sum fer my mom..and im practically left with nothing..so its tyme fer me to save up..i realli need to go fer gweat spore sale mann..i hope they'll end late july!

DeaD

2005-05-28T21:27:00.000+08:00

Okie..i dunno wads happening to me..These daes..im seeing "crap" tings..
like tt Mr Roach and Miss Roach at the middle of the staircase lending..den recently, qayyum fetched me home frm work..den as usual, he alighted me at the sideroad.. where..of all places..Mr Kittie and Miss Kittie were making out..And pple were looking at them!! They dun feel any sense of shame!
And they were not even bothered..i cud see tt they were having a gr8 tyme mann..And qayyum was like"see..even animals make out..hint..hint"
i turned to him and gave him my ugliest look and snap him away..
And tts kindda disgusting!
Mr Kittie was on top of Miss Kittie and they were shaking..
hahahaha!!
talking bout qayyum..we've been on the rocks lately..tis daes, he goe maner2 tak bilang and he cums home very late in the morning..and it worries me..
cakap gi east coast main billiard lah..main pool lah..gi chaichee lah..heiizz..juz one mistake he make, habislah..its over..im still being patient with him..still holding on to his words..
my dad is back,he went to zimbabwe last week..he came back todae with a swensens cake(my lil braders' bafdae and my parents' 23rd yr anniversary)
Aniwae..im alone at work, jess not working, rein off todae..and todae, fer the first tyme..i kena scolding sia..by tis mad guy..
the storie goes like tis..
at 4:30+, a haggard looking man came into the eclub..
Stopid man: i wan to use the internet
Me:(sweetly)Sure, do u have ur membership card with you?
Stopid man: no! why shd i need a membership card?!
Me:(with patience) You need to be a member to sirf the net..Its oni $10 fer 2 years..
Stopid man: how can liddat one?! tell ur stupid manager the rule here sucks!
Me:(blinked)
Stopid man: You crazee gerl! Use computer oso cannot! Stupid crazy women u are!
Me:(kept quiet)
An eClub member hu was using the computer(N.Manikaveloo): Ey,better watch wad you are saying!
Another eClub member(NicK):Crazee man ahh!
Stopid man: Stupid! (and bangs the glass door)
Me:(took a deep breath)
I dared not look ath the man again, by the tyme, he left tis place oredi..
I stood up, went to the toilet..and..(tis is wad i usually do wen i kena scolded)
cried..i cudden spend too long in the toilet coz noone was standing by the counter(im working alone) so i proceeded to the counter and finished my
work..Den, Mr Manikaveloo(a member above my wokplc) came to me and said "next tyme he cums again, u call me, im living upstairs."
and i smiled..it was scary..im working alone, so anyting can happen..wad if he strikes me wen im getting ready to go home tonite? isshh..
heizz..gr8 spore sale is here..and im so looking foward to it..but..i havent get my pay! and besides..im practically gonna work everyday except fer sundaes wen yue hong gg fer australia..so..no shop till i drop tis month..
aniwae..bout my family cap last weekend..it was gr8! of course..my crazee cuzzins..had lotsaf fun..slept at 5+ in the morning, woke up at 7am..we played games tru out the day..story telling..jokes and all, by the end of the dae, i was dead tired..met nysha,man,rafie and zack..they tak jadi gi sentosa..den i packed home..did more designings..and gez wad? my NDP balloting poster SUCKS..i tink im not good with computer..juz good at hands..sketching and colouring i gez..jess said it was okie..and i was pissed at mysef..looked tru dionnes' and reins' designs..wae better then mine! since i didnt get the chance to go ndp last yr at the stadium, i ballotted tis year..but..at tampines stadium! yes! theres gonna be a celebration at tampines stadium tis yr..and of course, its not gonna be as fun as at the actual one at the padang..okie dokie now, i gotta go..im meeting ija and fizah tmro i gez..to discuss bout our next weeks; outing at sentose..yipee!
okie..its 9:13 now..im having a bad dae sey..pple make my head spin..and with kids here..waliow..headache+heartache!
ill catch u guys layta!

W0osh

2005-05-21T19:41:00.000+08:00

Its a dark raining dae to dae at bishannorth..had tea session todae..dionne came ovr and we set off to eat! Dionne is on a diet mode so she didnt ate much..me..
hahaha..i was damn hungry..ate mee hoon,fishballs..sandwiches and tis yellow kuih..had tea..tt was at 2+ almoz 3pm..den at 5:30,went fer dinner, and mind u..i had coffee buns(but its still fattening lah) and choc bubble tea..
rein half dae todae so she left early..and im alone now, dionne is here till 8+ 9pm..tomoro will be my camping dae and im so looking foward to it! itll be gr8!!
mu cuzzies..games..story2..adventuring..yey!!
hhmm..niwae, correction..ill be working 6 times a week starting on the 6th june till my last dae on the 18th..and ill be working alone with my manager..
tt mean..GOOD pay!! yeehaa!! muahahahaha!!
i seriously need to buy new pair of jeans..shirts..bags..accessories and shoes..
tot of wearing pump shoes to skool but i dunno if its allowed or not..
ader je baru bukak skolah dah kena sound with the teachers there..but at ite..they wun bother rite??
but i wann abe a good gerl in ite..the one hu nvr skip lessons..nvr sleep inside class..nvr late fer skool..oways finish task on tyme..hehehe..
insyallah..coz if im gonna be slacking in skool, kena hayyakk dgn qayyum..
muahahaha! aniwae..im getting tired of bloggies oredi ey..dunno why.. i very lazee to browse the skins but i cant keep mysef away frm posting new skins..(eerr..get me?)
As i was on the wae to work tadi..i was tinking of gg jogging tis weekend with umar, buk and fizah..i havent tell them yet..itll be better if eddie cums along coz i need someone to pace along with me..umar and buk definately will be miles away frm us..jog around pasir ris and tampines ke..need to lose tis bulging fats u noe..okie now..browsing tru skins..c ya layta!

Tiring dae

2005-05-20T21:39:00.001+08:00

Moshi Moshi..
im feeling darn tired todae and im still at work..counting the seconds until the clock tick 22:00.Hubbys' gonna fetch me..had a blasting nite with him yerterdae.. bbual till wee hours of the morning and now, missing him so badly..skool is opening soon..im yet to buy the uniforms and books..tot of buying 2 dress and 2 pants..so boleh tukar2..tak boring..hee..
aniwae, i was doing counter duty last nite wen a regular eclub member, jay nilo(tis charming foreigner now a pr in s'pore) asked me wetha im a star wars fan..
eerrr..i watched the whole episodes of harry potter and lord of the rings..but star wars?? i dont..so i told him im not interested in tt movie..and he said.."aw..
i tot of asking you to watch the movie with me.."
i gulped..firstly..he's enganged..his fiancee is in philipines on vacation.
and i politely declined his offer..itll be akward fer me to go to the movies with him mann..yikes!
todae, hes not here..so i assume hes either at home or at the cinema..
*yawnn* its oni 21:29 and its so0o killing me..rein is at the counter..i covered the first half..
tomoro..we haf a tea session fer the e filling volounteers! tt means...FOOD!the mp and his pa(s) will be here so tomoro need to be in a tidy mode.
kindda farnie, my hair is short and i went to work tying my hair..hahaha..macam ekor babi!
im so super xcited bout my family gathering..and my fwens reunion tis 4th june..im so0o waiting fer my pay, which maybe, i will get next month..worked fer 10 daes oni..so its like..$355?
maybe next month a bit more coz ill be covering fer yuehong on mondaes..shes gg to australia..tt means..5 daes a week fer me..good..keep me occupied..kalau tak..melangok je..i so want to go buy the bikini..so fizah..maybe nxt week reserve a dae fer me..ill keep u updated when i get my cheque~wee!
then next month, before skool starts hopefully i get my next month's pay so as to goto something to my hair..hhmm..reb0nd then perm at the ends..ill see how..kering sey..baru pinjam my sis duit makan fer dinner..nasib office dier sebelah..kalau tak, puase lah aku nari..
speaking of puase..i havent bayar balik my 5 daes sey..
i shd..soon..okies fer now..gotta go! muakx!

jUp jUp

2005-05-16T19:28:00.000+08:00

Went out with fizah tadi..rounding tampines..br0wse tru her clothes fer her new sko0l..im reallie xcited fer her..suppossed to give him a surprise visit at his camp but something came up..fizah bought a new baju at ebase..and it s0o0o nice! browse tru bikini at century..and im plannig to buy tis purple-s0-nice bikini oni if fizahs' buying it..u hear me gerl?? im not gonna wear the bikini alone..so u haf to buy too..hehehe den we chilled at coffee bean, tempat my work plc lamer..bbual2.. catch up with one another..beli tripple decker and we cudden finish it..it was so muak..but the pure ch0c was siperb..went home early..den ltr at 830 i haf to head down to kak icha's plc..we haf a cuzzin gathering fer next saturdaes' camping at east coast..will be staying overnite till mondae morning! yey! den i gtg back..finish some work..design stuffsssss...
im a lil pissed at someone..tasha..and i dun wish to talk bout her now..actuallie its kindda dah lamer but ive been keeping tis ting in me fer quite long oredi..
wadever~
and yesterdae..i was heading home after work, nak nak tangga..
den in the middle of the staircase landing, Mr Roach and Miss Roach were making out..at first..i tot they were dead..BUDDEN..wen i moved closer..
they're having a good tyme afterall..if oni i can understang Roach languages..
muahahaha! im off tmro and i was planning to stay home and do some cleaning..
throw stuffs yak dah lamer an all..okies now, i gotta get ready to kak ichas' plc now..later readers! i love u all!

sTreSsfuL

2005-05-14T20:57:00.000+08:00

jess went off at 5pm tadi..and im all alone now till 10pm..got course tadi so the plc was a bit packed with kids and pple but now..oni 4 or 5 remained..playing games on the net..i wanna go update my fwenster ltr..kindda boring to read..
and i haf yet to study my advance(hear tt yan?) theory..its kindda difficult..hopefully, ill pass ti once like how i did fer my basic..insyallah..
aniwae..ive been moody lately..tadi bertekak lagi dgn qayyum..and i haf to give in..its okie..hes gg tru alot now..not sure whr he is..dun bother to ask..i dowan him to tink tt im controlling his life and all..ill juz keep quiet..
any dissatisfactory, i tink its best if i keep it to myself..
kalau bersuara..nnti dier marah..let it be, as long as hes happie..
hes not picking me up todae again..tink hes hanging out with his fwens..takper lah..making me miss him more..and tts g0od..
my next pay(counting the daes)..cannot spend oredi..gota lend him some $$..tt stupid bike man overshot the reparations..and he spent $1000+ oredi and still not enuff..
promised me he'll pay me back wen he got his pay..i dun mind..
wad is his, is mine..wad is mine, is his..i still hadnt told him bout the 4th june sentosa outing with my gerlfwens yet..dunno wen is the rite tyme..
we seem to be at loggerheads each tyme..maybe we shd haf sometyme to cool off first..blah blah blah..
its confirmed..my last dae here will be on the 18th june..bb 20th i start skool oredi..no more hanky panky, muz study2..
its oni 8+ and im so sleepy oredi! heiizz..no idea wad to do next sia..
oh yes! browse bloggie! wee!!

CraZee

2005-05-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

hello..sorrie fer the late updates..
been bz at work lately..im at work..haf coffee bun fer dinner and now, posting a new entry..koled my hubby several tymes and he didnt pick up the fon and im wondering why..koled his home and mum said hes not at home..
i knew he went to chai chee tadi ptg..takkan blm balik2 kan??
well..we had tis bid heated argument two daes ago..abt him being jealous and stuff..boys are so sensitive nowadaes..we usually talk on the fon and settle the dispute kalau ader gado2..but tt dae ws different..he didnt wanna talk to me. Instead, he hang out with his chaichee fwens and was home at 4+ in the morning..and i had to wait fer him despite being exhausted frm work and all..
i did something terrible and this, i shall not reveal wat i did coz its t0o embarassing..I was crying like shit the whole dae and was in bad shape..had a blocked nose and my muscles were aching due to a long jog earlier( i hadnt jogged fer a long while)
Was crying over the fon and all..said he was tired..and wanted to rest..tt ached me more mann! And yan msged me earlier(tak abis2 budak tu) tanye kul brape nak kol dier..and i called him back..and yan..yes..i was indeed crying..fine, i lied..didnt want to pour to anyone at tt tyme..was t0o upset..
the next dae..went to work with eye bags and mopped hair..
surprisingly, i managed to cope with work and didnt let the matter with qayyum control me..after tt..he came pick me up..wasnt with his bikey(repairing..tak jadi buy new bike) and off we went to take the bus..den we had the tyme to talk and settle the matter..den..gezzie wad?? he bought me an anklet!! frm perlini silver..i so wanted it long ago..tt was one gweat pwesent i had frm him..
other then tt..he got buy me a perlini necklace last yr during my bafdae( which i lost) and a pair of perlini earrings on v dae tis yr..s0 sweet of him..

aniwae..dionne stopped by my workplc todae..and she is still here..
and she's in university!! s0o bright!
and her fanfic webbie..im so looking foward fer new updates..
im wearing tis stupid pants i bought at tis fashion fer $22 ( i had to buy one emergency fer work) and its like im wearing pyjamas trousers!!
a stipped pants!!! hahahaha!! mcm nak masok tido sey..and i looked horrible and weird..muahahaha!tmro..ill be working alone..oh no..correction..dionne juz told me jess will be in oso..

hhmm..last wednesdae i went back to meet my old naggie teacher, mr lau..
he changed his gf oredi..
met sarhan and his cliques..met fizah, ijah, zack and umar..and we had a hell damn lot of fun!! and i mean it!! i so0o miss them s0o badly! ate kfc..caught up with each other..and laf..laf..laf..
ok..tts umar..

per0t boleh pecah sey..tell u ar..they're one in a million!
den we cadang2 wanna go tepak sirih( as suggested by fizah) muz collect $25..
den can go makan samer2..yey!!muahahahaha!!
and on the 21st May..my classmates made a reunion to Sentosa..and I CANT MAKE IT!! i'll be working alone at tt dae..summore, eclub will be having a tea session fer the efiling volunteers..the MP will be there..Mr Zai..
and so am i..hehehe..okies now..i wanna go br0wse some bloskins..
layta!

L0w

2005-05-07T21:43:00.000+08:00

Im like alone at the office..jess is off todae..and so is rein..alone..
8 hours of boredom..still havent finish the work jess gave me..haf till 17May to get it done..Im so0o freaking tired of answering calls frm pple hu wans to attend the ms office class but dowan to register..how am i suppose to confirm the class if they havent register??? %^&$#*&!
and yes..i changed my blogskin again..saved some into my folder..
so kalau dah bored of tis, can change into new one..hehe..
anywae before i came fe work tadi..went fer a shopping spree-alone..
my baby was happily sleeping at home..tired gi pancing pat tanjung rhu last nite..
jauh siak..bought makeups..shoes frm charles n keith..slua panjang( yang tak nampak belah bontot and pepek)( syed omar qayyum naik angin wenver he sees me wearing hipster or my tite ladee pants) so my baby now no need to worrie leerr..
bought a new eyeliner..beg baru at metro..and 2 baju jepun..yak wrap around tu..
but still..not enuff..
wanna buy sumore shoes!! maybe next pay..
yeehhaa!! bsok nak klau to town..to wisma..nak beli beg surf babe..den outz with him..
i need to blanje him pizza hut(hes been waiting fer 9 months)
slalu nye hes the one hu buys me food..kater gentlemen kan?
aniwae...
bsok kiter 9 MONTHS!!! yey!!! so0oo far..
my longest relationship..and im looking foward to being with him ferever! weehee!!
and..i cut my hair oredi..he hates my new hairstyle..
layered..shot till my neck..so wen my hair is not straight, its mms under my ear..and it looks horrible!
and he hates the colour of my contact lens now-hazel..
he saes its like a different me..
short hair..non-grey eyes..wadever..hahaz..
ruzaini called me several tymes..but i didnt pick up coz its either im at work bz, or im oline with qayyum at nite..but he shd understand..rite?rite?rite?
time to go home soon..
nari naik bus balik..
motor rosak..tak jadi beli super 4..nak gi repair tzm dier..sayang sgt pat tzm..biarlah..
asalkan dier bahagia..
so its gonna be a long journey home fer me..heiisshh..
so looking foward to go out with him on our 9 month anniversary tomoro!
but minus the bike, it shd be better! so we can spend tyme in the bus cuddling..dari naik motor..the oni ting i can see is he's back..! ok now..gtg..tooddles!!

BIG FAT LIAR!!

2005-05-05T09:29:00.000+08:00

Fuck him! Fuck him!!
so much of being single?? Sial pey jantan!!
nasib i didnt fall fer his sweet fucking words!! Nazrul kepala butoh!!
nasib aku setia dgn matair aku!!! aku tak klua dgn kau!! tak gi masuk hotel!!!
sial pey jantan..kanina..ajak aku masok hotel..sial pey jantan!!!
here goes..i logged into my msn..and gezzy wad??
his freaking gf is online..and they haf been together for 4 freaking years!!! so much of being single?? lelaki gian..anak sundal!!
AAARRRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!
heiizzz..congrats to me..i didnt fall fer his words and stayed loyal to my guy..
but its kindda u noe..doesnt make sense and all..i dun love him..why bother??
juz another jackASS craving fer sex..
niwae..deleted and blocked him frm my contact list...
BTW..anyone wanna get to noe him??
his the RAJA ple call him in dunman sec skool..real name is Nazrul-Sial..
pukimak dier betol!!
ok majidah..stoppp..
breathe in..breathe outzzz..
hhmm..back to ME..im missing my guy even more..had a fite with him last nite..and i was on the blk, getting ready to jump..and he followed me..
yeah..he wanted us off yesterdae..and i threatened to jump off the building( i was oredi on the 12th floor) and he hugged me..(fizah..guys..sorrie..i was too carried away with my emotions)
tt made me cry even more..and he dragged me to the first floor and we talked..peacefullie..
the reason why he wanted us off was tt he cudden stand guys calling and msging me anymore..
yeah..guys hus fon number i dunno..(i dunno whr they got my number frm)
he had lived with it fer freaking 9 months oredi..and pple(guys) kept calling my home, asking fer me..and he cant tahan..
now..ive decided to change my number..so pple i dunno wont trouble me anymore..
i didnt noe why i wanted to kill mysef anywae..giler eh??
well, i did slash my wrist fer the past few years..(tt was silly) kena counselling at skool..
and its a sin mann..ive stopped slashing my wrists now..and wad??
jump off the building??
crazee-me..
the ting is..if im reallie upset, i dun tink bout anyting else xcept hurting mysef..and its bad..
im reallie troubled by tis emotion..and i cant figure out why..used to go to the beach alone..but it didnt work, the pain, the sadness is still there..
but now..of course im not gonna kill mysef..
ive got lovely fwens..my family and moz importantly, the love of my life..syed omar qayyum..nothing will get in our wae..
insyallah..pls god, save our relationship..
well now, updates ltr..
gotta gp fer my dinner..im working alone todae aniwae..toodles!!

saturdae blues~

2005-05-01T08:43:00.000+08:00

Oh mann!! im like having tis stupid wisdom tooth growing and its hurting so damn bad!
And im working todae..dun tink he's picking me up..coz he fishing again with his family..
sek pancing je..and im gg again with him tomoro.. heiizz..and then we mite haf gerun outing tmro..
i gez..hopefullie..
oh ya..jess is not working toda..she put me with a former ojt student..cindy..
im at the counter..tahaning my bladder..wanna go to the ladies tapi mcm malas gitu..hahak..
well..pay not here yet sey..so i mite be getting it nxt wednesdae..heeiisshh..lamer sey..
i need to get a new pair of jeans..
accesories..a new hair cut and all..yes fizah..i noe! its long oredi! never had hair tis long before..but i cant stand the heat..so warm tis daes..biase..potong layered..i need to trim off my split ends oso..

juz cant get it out frm my mind.
out of money oredi..omar gave me $50 juz last week and its gone! mom gave me $20 two daes ago and its gone! heiizz..big spender..
i miss the pure choc ice blend at cbtl oredi..but i dun miss not working there! pays me $4 to serve pple coffee..clear their trays..cuci their cawan2..kena kacau with those mat motors outside..and here..
$5 and hour..sit mengadap the comp.screen..heiizz...but can be boring at tymes..kalau takde benda nak buat lah..
now the efiling tinggy dah habis so not too much work to do as the previous weeks..me dah nak masok 3 bulan keje sini sey..
and its ok..so fine.xcept fer the journey..
speaking of journey..now i go home w/o bkey oredi..he sold his bike tadi..now buying super 4..tapi tak athu biler boleh get his new bike..so ill be spending my journey home alone in the bus tis week.. *shrugss*
tot of changing new skin..later after my dinner i gez..
dinner..my sis onna buy me..and of course, ill haf to pay her back..
damn it..tis toothache is so bad! goosshh!! i cant smile properly..macam cacat gitu! hahah!!
well..natasha called me tadi..saying sugerstyle tarik dier masuk dancecrew dorang..watever..and she agreed..i miss g-jade..wonder wen can start practicing..and natasha ajak me go CLUBBING..not my type at all! dulu ye lah..nak gi clubbing dgn fizah,ija,nysha lah..abis dah de matair nie..mampos aku kena penampar dgn dier..den tt tyme i was having dinner at east coast with my guy and she msged ne, ajak gi boat quey!
and he was pissed..heeiizz..but im siding with my guy..i noe he doesnt want me to go to these plces fer good reasons..and i dun need to go clubbing to show off my dance skills..yeah..hahaha!!
khatid called me tis afternoon..we're gonna haf a dunman reunion badge 2000 outing tis 4th june..
to SENTOSA!! juz gerls..my cliques..intan's cliques, amalina's cliques..all dmn malay gerls lah..
well..c how it goes..i dun tink the news da travel coz khatid juz told me..ok now..i reallie cant wait..gtg now! the toilets' calling!

m18_cens0red

2005-04-30T12:52:00.000+08:00

Hello hello!
its been a month since i wroth my last entry..
well..my life haf been hectic..
nowadaes..im having my mood swings..marah tak tentu pasal..pissed tak tentu pasal..
well..im having my P.E.R.I.O.D....
heeiizzzz...
and pimples are making their builds on my face..lucky oni 2 pop out frm my face..
i got my make over pix frm kak syikin oredi..submitted tru msn..havent got the original one yet..
tak sabar sey!!
i look nice!! weehee!!! hahahaha!!!
nazrul..im afraid hes pissed at me now..we kindda get into a fite..wud love to settle tings with him one dae..
hes avoiding my msgs and my kols..gez hes moving on....
aniwae..i miss dunman so much! tot of dropping by one dae..
went to work tadi and terserempak dgn mzan..fizah's guy..and i dun tink he recognise me until i tegur him..he looked kindda shocked..hahah!! he was with ogy..(not bad looking..=B)
and gezzy wad??
im working tmro..means..i cant go out with my hubby!
well..we're gg fishing tis sundae anywae..then i heard frm my sis we're having gerun outing tis sat nite or sundae nite..
kalau sat nite means i cant follow coz im working..
if sundae nite,,after fishing, ill go back to omar's plc or he cums to my plc then off we go..
my sis mite haf a car tis weekend..cik dins' gg overseas tis week..
my parents will be off to tanjong pinang tis sundae and mondae..so its lefth with us, the kids..my sis will be in charge of the house..im so xcited! fishing!! whoa..tak penah pegi sey..

anywae..updates on my basic theory test..
it wasnt bad..ok..i managed to finish all the questions..omar took it with me oso..tgk saper pass, saper fail..hehe..hopefullie i pass!! i dowan to amik lagi sey..
i haf a new collegue..name is rina..veri sweet..still new..gez ill be working saturdaes tis month..and jess put me alone..its owite with me..
Aniwae..i gtg..get ready fer home..to the toilet change my roti kering(kotex)
updates tmro..or sum other dae!
toodles!

=ma!dah=

2005-04-23T11:34:00.000+08:00

Evening smua!!
i juz had curry n0odles fer dinener..bbuurpp*
and my stomach.is not doing any go0d..
sakit perot je..cramp..
oh no! P.E.R.I.O.D!!
well..gotta pack some kotex pads in my bag.. freedom..hahaz..
btw..dionne's last dae tmro..and im not seeing her tmro coz tmro is my off dae..
bo0ho0hoo..nxt week got new collegue oredi..
and i juz got a msg frm omar..he's not picking me up t0dae!! he's out fishing..
damn..gotta naik tt bus with full of pple..smelly pple to be exact..
hu doenst wash their armpits..smua bangsa baru balik keje..goosshh..
but xcuse me..i dun smell ok..
kak syikin called me the other dae..maybe tmro..im gg to taufik's concert.. entah concert ape lah..juz maybe..if not..maybe ill stay home.. blaja my theory..im having my basic theory test on tuesdae..entah boleh buat ke tak..seems long since i last took an exam..
nazrul..he's still in brunei..why am i still tinking bout him..?? am i missing him?
it cant be..i tot i forgot all bout him oredi..
heiizz..gr8..im having an sms war with him now..war of words..malas nye aku..
nak tido sak..
baru kul 8+..dlm bus can sleep ltr...
gna get my pay so0onnn!! yipee!!!!
sho0opinGG!! i wanna buy a new discman..mp3..hhmm..taknak ar..
i wanna buy discman..heheh..
backs aching now..wanna go study my theory oredi..
to0dleS!

=Beautiful s0uL=

2005-04-20T19:45:00.000+08:00

Whats happening to me sey? Pening2 tis daes..
and my belly..its getting bigger and bigger..
too much food i gez?? shud be?? fizah called me ysterdae..and we chatted a while..miss her so much! soo0oo g0od to noe shes doing well in her relationship and mizan can stand her mood swings..ehem*
niwae..skools starting so0n and im super xcited! nak belik uniform baru..books and all..shoe..jap eh..perot sakit..
toilet calling...
ok..im back..hahah..maybe bcoz of the kfc i makan tadi during dinner..
too full..hehhe..dua hari simpan sey..
sorrie if i eerrkk u guys hor.. sharing some of my bad points..hahah..
iisshhh maidah..gain weight sey..i shall not reveal my weight..
dah lose weight bru boleh reveal..bluueekk..
my height pon samer..dah tinggi sikit pon baru boleh reveal..
boringgggg....my managers on mc..mayb tmro oso..
im done with the e filing tinggy..but dunno if still got sumore tmro..
hopefullie not!i go browse summore skin..adios!

h0orey!

2005-04-19T07:48:00.000+08:00

Greetings!!
at w0rk..did my job..
now..nothing t0 do..well..updates on my dinner with my hubby's family..
cancelled on saturdae nite..postphoned to sundae evening..which was yesterdae..
it was super duper gr8!
i went over to his plc..then cik minah tgh siap2kan sharafah(his lil sister) and cik aim was getting ready to go down meet cik asri(cik minah's best fwen) madihah was at work s0 she cudden j0in us..
then..i tot nak nak bus ke aper..budden cik asri pick us up..gi makan pat airport...swensens!!
and its memalukan sey...cik asri blanja makan...i havent met him before summ0re..
then he blanje2...i was so darn full by the end of the dae..had chilli fish pasta.. den calamaris..ice cream after tt..cik asri was soo0oooo nice!!!
then me in the car..sat beside my future mum-in-law(insyallah) den we were babbling bout aeroplanes..the airport and stuff..
den..about 9+, after dinner..we went to cik asri's plc..
he got something to give to my hubby's family!!
a computer!!! bb he got one oredi..den he wans to give one away..and its still brand new sia!! den..omar vomitted..pening kpala..oways liddat..dier boleh naik motor je..remembered laz yr..nak bwk dier gi hospital for he was sick..brape byk kali sey tur0n bus..muntah2..goshh...
aniwae..he wanted to sell his bikey to mu cuzzy..FOR $200!!!!! TZM SIAK!!!!
my hubby is s0s0s0s0s0s0 stoo0o0pid!!
mentang2 he got thousands of dollars with him now..he wans to buy a new bikey..SUPER 4..heeiiizz..jual lah at least $400-$600 eh??
lagi baru sey m0t0r tu..i told him..sukerhati lah..he's money..not mine..
btw..he's paying fer my phone bill tis month..$80+ weehee..
so my duit gaji ltr can save2..sh0pping!!

bout nazrul..i tot bout it..i cant meet him..cant contact him anymore..bcoz if i do..ill be falling fer him..and i d0wan tt to happen..im oredi happie with omar..
and wen he's back frm brunei..im gonna tell him tis..ill feel verrie guity..main blakang omar..itll be so unfair..i dont wish to hurt my hubby..and tis cums straight frm my heart..im sticking to my dearie..=B
im off tmro..
but gotta teman m0m make her new spects..
btw..munir..my brader dah sound.."kakak dpt gaji nnti bwk munir belikan baju boleh?"
and i was like..kesian nye adik aku.and i agreed..bcoz he's baju smua 2nd hand..all frm mine..wen im tired of tt shirt,ill pass on to him..so wen i get my gaji ltr i wanna bring him and tt lil aid fer shopoing!
speaking bout aid..tt boy ar..he gr0w up so fast!! getting on my nerves each dae..he'sss soo cute.. tak sampai hati nak marah2 dier..im patient with him at times..i haf too..cant resist tt lil brader of mine!

dionne's gonna leave like..next week??mann..im gonna mishh her..
den im gonna get a new collegue..i aint sure bout her name..
jess(my manager) is sick todae..she left earlier to go to the cdc..
my sister is off todae..omar's picking me up ltr..ggoosshh..skejap dah bole rindu..
baru smlm klua..hheeiizz..
btw..i do read some blogs..(wont mention names here)
i dont weallie fancy some gewls..u noe..pose their ugly pix on their bloggies..
claming how good they can dance..i can dance too mann!!
shake my bootie..hahaha..well..maybe juz my emotions..bb i reallie miss dancing..dulu..
evry weekends turun esplanade fer dance prac..skrg..smua org bz..bz..bz..
hheiizz..i oni got a chance to dance at home.. ={
miss dance s00oo00 much!!
guys..pls..we start practicing ssooonn??
lemme share sum makeover pixes hor..

So..tts tt!

yeah!!

2005-04-16T09:36:00.000+08:00

Yey!!
my makeover's tmro!!
den..im having dinner with my hubby's family..yipee!!
btw..im gg dinner ltr at 7pm..
im sososososo hungry!!!
and todae..the otah otah man takder.. =(
beli mee siam je nnti..heizz...
btw..nazrul's gg brunei..tink ill miss him..
gooshh..maidah..somebody???
zipp me back to reality! iisshhh..
cut it out..aniwae...i juz wrote down jlo nye lagu hold u down..
lioke tt song..btw.....
i miss my gewlfwens so much much..
wonder wad they're up too..smua sibok keje..
nnti..smua dah skolah..heisshh..
bout my ite..my hubby..omar..noes bout it oredi..
he noes i comfirm in nursing..
ironically..he encouraged me..to study..
bb my dad baru kena retrenched..so he advised me not to buang duit my dad lagi..
i still haf yet to show him tt i can study..not fer him..but for myself..
dah..no more 2nd regrets..
me cannot wait fer skool..meet new frens..
new lessons..new environment..miss 5B sey..
those tymes together..giler2..and im oways the one kena bullied..
but nvr the less...i still love them!
man..jay..buk..umar..mizy..syuaib..wan..ZACK..hafiz(sedara ku) anyone else i left out??
apologies..oh ya!! eddeham!!
hehehee..hmm...overall..i miss nabilah the most..my one and oni true fren..
she's the best!! heiiz..gotta give her a kol sometyme.. maybe ltr wen im going dinner..lots to share with her!!
aniwae..the toilets' calling..
bladder-no-control
layta!!

Rainy dae..

2005-04-14T09:11:00.000+08:00

Moshi moshi..im off todae..at work..juz got home..amik aid balik skola tadi..went to register ite with buk tadi..bumped into 2 gerls hu happened to take nursing in the skool oso..oklah..peramah..not stuckup..den wen i was heading to take a picture..someone called up my name..a guy..but i dared not turn back coz there were a lot of pple tadi..the pupils were having their recess.. and the cafateria wasnt bad..loads of GOOD food..hehehe
its raining now..im going to take a short nap layta..called naz..he's buying s0me food fer his brader at kembangan plaza..kindda mizz him..
got in to a fite with my hubby tadi..tis was h0w it went..
"I da cakap dgn u dari kemarin.u yg keras kpala.tros terang,i memang tak suker u pegi.U faham tak..u mmg degil..Kepala batu..Selama ni..ape yg i ckp u ader dgr?? K..i tak control u!Lets part..I taknak jadi dayus..I go pick up my tings todae..I nid my ic(i took his ic bb i gotta get him a new simcard) WE'RE OFF!! since i cant control you!Keras kpala! Degil..Lets seperate!"
The other msg was...
"Eh pompan!Kau pey pasal lah!Aku bingit ar dgn kau..!!Bosan! Kepala butoh!Kau memang nak tgk kan aku main giler..Ok ar..Jgn cabar aku! kau langgar salah orang!
Aku tak tahu asal aku betol pey bingit dgn kau! Aku mcm nak sepak muker engkau!"
Tell me now..how can i not keep in touch with nazrul?? I juz dun feel loved frm him like how i used to feel 8 months ago..now..he's like someone so different..
Den..he called me..decided to settle tings once and fer all...promise he'll change his temper..nvr thr0w tantrum at me..heiizzz...he still needs tyme to change..and ive decided to give him the tyme..after all tt we've been tru..i still wanna hang on to him..i love him still..
Finally..we managed to settle tings peacefully..
he was sorrie fer cursing and swearing me..actually..there's MORE but its kindda personal so i betta not let it out in the net..
hhmm..he's on his wae to jb..pump minyak..*yawwnnn*
where's my nazrul??
Not mine lah..juz where is he? he hasnt signed in yet..hheeiisshh..
wat am i up to now?? Im still yet to noe nazrul deeper..so..by any chance,
nazrul's frens' are/is reading tis..do tag me..wad kindda guy he is and all..
all i remembered was..he was in innovaters in my skool(i tink) and a member of horticulture??izzit??
*shrugs..*

Idah bLues..

2005-04-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

Afternoon readers!
my stomach has been grumbling since the moment i entered my work plc..
im so0o hungry..and again..im not sure wad i wanna eat later..
hheeiizz..maybe..juz waffle and choc iceblend..kesian eh??
mak masak kari ayam sey..tapi tak sempat bwk gi keje..bb blom siap..
nak kena ikat perot..
hheeiizz..besok tak keje..tapi siang2 dah nak ekna bgn gi register skolah dgn buk..meeting him at tampines interchange..
then after tt,i made plans with datok oredi..nak gi mamam dgn dier den topup my farecard! hehehe..
aniwae..i tot of getting a haircut before i start skool in june later..
potong pendek sikit..its hot tis daes and my hair is killing me!!
im rebonding and perming the ends..maybee..if ive collected enuff $$..
aniwae..im having tis makeover tinggy..im s0s0s0 xcited..
then,after the makeover..im meeting him..(let u guys gez hu ok?)
where are we going..? i shall not sae anyting.. ader je my gewlfwens cum and bring me home..actually we juz meeting..jumper je.. stakat jumper..
omar's going jb on tt dae..so i dont tink ill be seeing him..
btw..pimples are cracking mann!! and its rite on my forehead!!
gosshh..luck not tt big..hhmm..ill shoot sumtong again wen im bored ok??
well..still gonna go upgrade my blog..weehee!!

g0ing crazy

2005-04-12T07:43:00.000+08:00

Eversince the dae u went away and left me lonely and cold..
My life just hasnt been the same..ohh baby no.
Wen i looked into ur eyes the moment tt i let u go..
I juz broke down..
Baby if i ever get the chance to be with you again i wud sacrifice..
Cuz the feeling tt i feel within no other man wud ever make me feel so right
Its nice,to smile wen i get ur phone call at nite
But i'd rather haf u here with me, rite next to me
I miss the wae u hold me tite..
I gotta let u noe i feel so weak without ur touch
I never tot tt i cud love a man so much..
I gotta let u noe i tink we are destiny..
for you i'd cross the world, for you i'd do anyting..
Tts rite baby..Im going crazy..
I need to be ur ladee..Ive been tinking lately..
Tt u and me,yes we can make it..
Juz ride with me , roll with me im in love with u baby..
Break it down now..ill tell u wad i feel..
from the moment tt i met you it's been so damn real..

A gerl's tale

2005-04-09T12:37:00.000+08:00

hello readers!
im at work..as usual..
had long johns fer dinner and im still so full!
tankx dionne fer travelling to juntion 8 to buy me my dinner!
well..i called naz juz now..asked him if hes out to work yet..and he said he missed me..
aaww..how am i gonna live widdat??
confided to dionne juz now..and im yet to be brave and pull tru..let nutting cum in my wae..
gosh..i miss my gerlfwens so much..u wonder wen can we meet and catch up with one another..
omar's gonna pick me up layta..oh boy..i haf so many tots crowding in my mind..so pple..tag me and gimme advice ok??
im in so much deliemma..
why am i tinking bout him so much?? wen i wake up..i didnt tink bout my boyfwen..but tink of him..wad has gone into me??
maidah..bastard sak aku..
iisshh..i gotta be strong..gerlfwens..tis is the tyme wen i need u guys so much but you're not here..we've gone to seperate ways i gez..
but i still miss and love u guys..please keeeppp in touch..

let me love you

2005-04-07T20:12:00.000+08:00

Hello readers..im not myself todae..im not sure why..
i haf got to study fer my basic theory oredi..
sumtinks not rite in my mind..
im now tinking bout nazrul..not sure why..is he fer sure tt he'll wait fer me if i happen to seperate with my guy??
he made me feel so comfortable..and wenever i log into msn..i wud search fer him first.. to noe if he's online or not..
wad am i doing?? i love omar so much..why does he haf to cum now?? why not before??
im sure my gerlfwens are gonna go berserk if i tell them tis..
tomoro marks my 8th month relationship with him..
wonder how long will we last..
shud i confess to naz?? shud i be quiet??
fuck..wad shud i do?? i reallie need to tok to someone now..but hu??
majidah..dumbass..fweak..mann..

confusion

2005-04-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

well..im hafing otah otah fer dinner..at work..as usual..killing my boredom..
well...i see pple with lovely bloggies..but mines so dumb sey..
aniwae..im in contact in nazrul..if u guys are wondering hu..he's my senior frm dunman sec..pple call him "Raja".
and he's sooooo sweet!! i feel comfortable with him..
chatted on msn..on the phone..but it didnt last long..
i haf my boyfwen to tink about...agreed to meet naz one dae..
maybe after my makeover on the 16th..not sure if im gonna go to his plc or we meet sumwhere..sometimes i feel so bad..wen im toking to him on the fon, my mind is tinking on my boyfren..
does tt call cheating??
heisshh...im in no mood to write anyting now..mayb later..
wanna go browse blogskins..

01042005

2005-04-02T21:27:00.000+08:00

Now da april sey..im at work..
lagik jap lagi da kul 10..da leh alik..
bsok me off...going out with omar..meet him at lau pa sat tmro..den after he work we going out..
yipee!!
aniwae..i chatted with nasrul tadi..an x dunmanite..
very sweet guy i muz sae..he sae he saw me several tymes around my plc..
suspicious eh?? macam stalker gitu..
but he's granny live around der..hehehe..
so itll be ez if i wanna mit him up or sumtink..
the mps coming later..i gez..they're having meeting at the c.c..
gosshh..my pimples are cracking up!! one rite in the middle of my forehead..
iiss..gotta do some facial oredi..btw..kak ezan called me up..ive got to be her model tis mondae..then..on the 16th..kak ruzai and kak syikin ajak me pegi makeover!!best sey..dorang blanje me..but got condition..
i cannot be the preetiest one..hahaha..
bad sey...but hu cares??
its juz a photoshot of an hour glam oni..hehehe...
gotta show the pixes to omar..wakakakak
looking foward to sundae...
netball practice..
gotta lose sum fats oredi..
isnt tt wad i oways sae???
but i nvr do..
omar's rite..maidah cakap je..tapi tak buat..
kindda feel bad..miss him so much..cant wait to meet him ltr!!
my ezlink going low oredi and my 1st month pay is decreasing dae by dae..
omars' gonna topuo fer me..getting his pay soon...sae he gonna buy new bikey..got his 2a lisence oredi..den his tzm sek buat hal je..
dier nak beli super 4...
prefer phantom..can sit down and relax..dari menjongkit jongkit..
aniwae..i gotta go oredi..get ready to pack a bit..hang around..then go home!!
nite readers!

YiPpeE!!!

2005-03-29T19:02:00.000+08:00

Im meeting my dearie todae!! wo0ho0!!
2 daes nvr see him oredi sey..misshh him so much! aniwae..had mee siam and otak2 fer dinner..mee siam?? tak sedap..prefer the one at my plc one..pat bishan sini..sikit pey susah nak carik makanan!!me got my pay oredi..bsok off..boleh shopping!!
u shud b wondering how did my zoo trip go laz week with his family..it was superb!!Tapi it was kindda memalukan..his parents paid fer my entrance which was $14..paid fer my lunch at kfc..and dinner at kfc oso..iisshhh..
Nice huh??HIs lil sister dah tak takot sgt to me..hehe..cute lil darling..
then after tt,went back to his place,den he sent me off home..
The next dae we went out again..hehehe...then he struck 4D..
yes..its gonna b the first and the last tyme he's playing 4D..won $490/-
Then he go do his bike..paid he's bill..and mine..bayar saman and all..
I will haf to take more cautious toward tis relationship..takot2 he get out of hand..jadi habit sampai kahwin nnti..mampos..and yeah..we toked bout marriage..he saes to get engaged first..on 4 yrs tyme..then get married in 6 yrs time..lamer sey..he sae gotta earn money first..but overall, im sooo00ooo glad he wud wanna marry me, after all tt i went tru with my ex..Switch off..
tukar topic..still considering wen to introduce my parents to him..all my cuzzens noe sey..dah klua with him oso..cumer my m0m and dad je havent got a clue hu he is..but mom noes i haf him as my fwen lah..bcoz of the pastrys he send me evry week..weehee..
im going out with him yhis sundae..yey!!
go makan at pizza hut..yum yum..
eh..i getting fatter sey..takpelah..
nak tunjuk saper kan?? qayyum tak kisah..kurus ke gemok(i hope so..)
heheh..alritey..sakit perot..nak member0tz..wacah!!

like usual..

2005-03-22T09:17:00.000+08:00

hello..macam biase..dduk terpampang depan komputer sampai kul 10 mlm nnti..qayyum came by..antar dinner!! how sweet is tt?? tak yah nak susah nak pegi carik makanan pat luar..btw..going to the zoo with his family tis fridae..yippie!! hope evryting will turn out fine..insyallah..and i hope we nak his bikey.. bb segan sey nak tompang van cik mah(his auntie) see how it goes...haha..dun worrie..ill keep u updated aitex..
weehee!! and tomoro me off dae..nak kluar dgn datok..wakaka..gi mamam pat kfc ke pat macdonalds!!!! muz save space in my tummy tomoro..hhmm..qayyum doesnt noe yet tt im qualified for nursing in semei..he didnt haf a clue tt my interview was successful..i dun tink he wants to noe aniwae..if i were to tell him..i bet we will be fighting again sey..yaeh..boleh break record tau hari2 gado..yes..wen we have good tyme together in the afternoon..we ngok wayang ke gi outing..biler nak balik nye part atau dah balik.tgh bergantung pat tepon..fite is common..
and its evrydae..u imagine..tak lamo lagi korang tgk rambut ku sudah tiada..BOTAK sey..but nevertheless..i still adore him...never gonna give up on him..give him chances for him to change his attitude..pple need tome to change mah??aniwae..im working alone todae..my boss is on mc..and dionne is off todae..how cool is tt??
nope..ure wrong..its no cool..i gotta manage tis club mysef..lucky my sis is juz next door pat cc..hahah...she'll cum in handy if i get stuck somewhere here..hahah..aniwae..my stomach dah bebunyi.. takde lah kuat sangat..unlike qayyums'..!! wwhhoopppss!!!
hahaha..alritey..chiow!! muakkxxx!!!

relieved..

2005-03-12T10:28:00.000+08:00

Wa liow leh...had a tuff dae last nite.. quarelled over on the fon with him again.. stressed up..but im glad tings are smooth now..he promised me tt he will change.. not to risau2 bout me going to ite and stuff..and tings went ok..fer a while..my mind went berserk..iisshh..he's on standby todae..we watching boogeyman tmro..wakakak.. i lioke! hhmm..he'll pay..coz he gaji bsok..me havent got my pay yet sey..i haf to pay his tabung balik..$20..bb tt dae we go out then got no $$ then korek tabung dier.. full of coins..hahah..funnie leerr..hhmm..i winder asal this daes sek nak kencing je.. baru tadi gi toilet.. skarang da raser nak terkencing balik..iisshh..cant control my blader..!! wakakaka!!hhmmm...miss my man so muchie..

2005-03-11T12:16:00.000+08:00

aloha!! macam biase..at work..got nothing else to do..yeah..ws my bafdae smlm.. qayyum picked me up frm work..then..on my bafdae itself..we fought..yes..its about the ite tinggy oredi..and sampai skrg..he juz cant help but be mad at me..i felt like giving up on him..but..sayang pey pasal..decided to hold on to his nags and temper..takpe la..insyallah..he will overcome his fear..takot sangat kalo i go over to someone else..iisshh.. *slaps forhead*
aiyoh..havent get my $$..isshh..*checks wallet* gosh..im oni left with $11.70.. haiyoh..then good fridae nak klua gi zoo lagi..i mish aid..so much..hari2 balik keje..dier dah tido..and not to mention..he tiudo sikit pey ganas..kaki oways end up on my face..or worse..under me..!!hahah!! dapat gaji nnti..tot of bringing munir and aid to snow ct..dgn qayyum skali..as for my sister..too bad lor..dah besar..dah keje..bayar sendiri..wkakakka..
btw..gez wad?? zaini msged me last nite..wished me happi bafdae..and he wanted to meet tis weekend..goshh..if qayyum is to noe..ill be dead mann..zaini bought me a gift fer my bafdae..sweet??well..hhmm..wad can i sae?? he's my x.. wahahaha!!
oklah..but those were the tymes mah?? he moved on..so am i..
*pop* popped a mentos into my mouth..mint..i lioke minty stuffs..well..gtg now..
hhmm..get u updated boggy..
muuaakkxx!

its my bafdae!!

2005-03-10T12:44:00.000+08:00

happy bafdae to me..happy bafdae to me..happy bafdae to maidah..happy bafdae to me...hahahaha!!!aloha..its been daes since i last wrote my entry..aniwae..got back my results..did very badly fer my maths..and yes..im heading for ite..im taking nursing..decided to pursue to poly after tt..at least..my future terjamin..i wonder wad type of fwens i shall haf in ite semei..relli got to buck up mann...no tyme fer 2nd regrets..qayyum didnt like me going fer ite..he sae the pple there suck..but he's in no control as to ask me to pursue my studies onot..he still haf got to respect my decision..but he told me to wait till he find the $$ to give me to retake my o levels to go for poly.. sweet eh?? but i cant..im wasting my tyme..dah lah masuk sec 5..waste one yr..heiizzz..susah datang la majidah nie...heheheh.. ive gotta prepare myself fer my new skool nnti.. see how it goes..
alritey..muakxx..bye!
I miss those tymes..take a peek...

zaman kiter kecik2 agi..hahaha..
sentosa 2003

Prom nite 2004

Youth dae celebration 2004

oh G0sH!!

2005-03-01T04:22:00.000+08:00

aahh!!! judgement dae t0dae!!hh000 mann..a few h0urs left! then results are out!! anw..im meeting nab bef0re g09ing t0 sk9ol..nak gi samer2..okok..update results ltr!
anw..tis daes..i feel funny..zaini used t0 k0l me evrynite but he hadnt been msging me fer like 3 daes oredi..izzit bcoz he's talking t0 s0meone else on the f0n..but c'm0n maidah..he's my ex mann..im oredi m0ving on..well..juz missed those tymes together..heeiizz..tis headache juz w0nt dissapear sey..had them since last yr.. once a while mesti migrane..hheeiizz..oklah..nak siap2..den nak pray...den nak outzz!!! hahaz!! c ya! muakx!!

an0ther b0ring dae

2005-02-26T19:10:00.000+08:00

heiizzz..at h0me again..tak klua gi maner2..hujan tadi..qayyun standby again.. had a fite wit him tadi..heiizz..
aniwae..aid tgh main playstation..iisshh..b0san nye..hheeiizz.. bs0k netball!! yeaahh!! dah b0le start xercise balik..g0tta l0se s0me fats..h0rh0rh0r.. bl0m makan dari tadi..s0 i betta get s0metink to eat ltr.. kepala nie sek pening je.. gaknye..24/7 mengadap c0mputer tak..hehehe..munir is out at silat now.. im actually training mysef to type wit my eyes glued to the computer..haha..pretty slow i gez... pphheeww...countdown..2 more daes to results..iisshh..sakit per0t..nak makan!!!

5 daes off

2005-02-25T14:06:00.000+08:00

i've g0t 5 daes off from work..kewl hah.. wednesdae baru kena dtg balik.. kindda b0red s0metymes at w0rk.. kalo takder benda nak buat..mengadap internet je..ok la..boleh tahan ter0k..aniwae..tis daes, i haf been chatting on the phone with ruzaini..not fer l0ng lah.. bb i understand dier p0n ader sk0la kan pagi.. but it's been l0ng since we've c0ntacted each other and tings are g0ing fine n0w..we've caught up with each other..hhhmm..we've g0t so many st0ries t0 tell..i t0ld him h0w stupid i was waiting for him..but i've m0ved on la..oh ya.. he asked me t0 be his valentine..g0 out with him last week...but as u all noe..i went out with qayyum..afterall,he's my l0vey d0vey guy..m0m's g0ing out oredi..meeting my dad i gez..den i'll be all al0ne at h0me..fetching aid from sk0ol later..aniwae..fizah and the rest..man..umar smua has been catching up wit one another, hanging around t0gether lately,feel kindda jealous..since i havent met anyone or g0 out with any of my classmates since pr0m..heiizz..wad t0 d0..i felt as if i've went t0 my own wae..but i d0wan tt to happen..i love my classmates s0 much..they were there f0r me each time i need them..oh g0sh..with the results c0ming.. new sk0ol..new envir0nment..hieezz..haf t0 start life back t0 square one i gez..qayyums' on standby todae and tmr0..and ill be w0rking on his bafdae nxt week..means we aint going out..den a week after his bafdae is my bafdae..and ill be working too..iisshh..hhmm..aniwae..ive g0tta tink of s0metink t0 give to him now..later!

per0t berbunyi..

2005-02-24T16:46:00.000+08:00

wacah!! me at w0rk..takder keje nak uat..bukan takder ar.. dah bis..uat advertistment.. goshh.. aniwae..omar amik nari balik keje..how sweet..and latest update,o level results bukan nari tapi mondae pukul dua!! *sigh* pat counter skrg.. senior citizens nga ader training c0mputer..hehe.. cute! nak makan aper sey nnti..ader kedai r0ti je pat depan..lain smua kedai babi.. terpaksa la kuruskan badanku yang c0mel ini..hahah!!read fiza's blog..man is after her back..iisshh..love life..
its oways liddat..but fiza had m0ved on i gez..tak tau lak decision dier cam ner kan.. aku pey lagi ter0k sak..iisshh..dgn scandals and all..nasib dah settle dgn omar..hey! i used to hate him so much dulu sey! sekarang da sayang menyang..heheheh!!didnt t0t i methim t00 s0on..tapi.. cabaran byk sak.. setiap kali hp berdering..dier yg angkat..msg..dier yg bacer..soo... i t0ld my kawan2.. saper2 ader dance info..mail me of k0l me..takm0 msg..danger..jahat tak kiter?? i duno until wen nak hide tis dance stuff frm him..ntah aper yang dier tak suker p0n tak tau.. bukannye kiter p0le dancing kan kawan kawan?? hehehe...nak makan!!!! iiishhh..saper tinggal daerah sini..pls..buat kan gad02 ke..nasik campur ke..*wek* kla kla..gtg..wacha!!

hehehe..

2005-02-23T21:09:00.000+08:00

yah00!! da boleh masuk net hari!! tankx to my e club c0mpany!!
macam gaji buter sey.. satu jam 5 ket0l..kalo takder aper2 nak buat b0leh bukak net surfing2 sey..tapi..j0urney dier..hah engkau..dari tampines to bishan..sempat tido ar...bus fare p0n boleh tahan..pakai pey la byk..nasib kekasihku ader mot0r! heehhee..
im not making use of his bikey ar..telanjur dier nak balik camp tu, die sudi2 la amik kiter balik..aniwae..l0nd dae todae..manager sur0 buat advertistment..quite interesting..hehehe..
my sister pat sbelah office je..pat bishan north cc..but she d0esnt like to b known as my sister..hahah..bcoz of my selenge ness i gez..h0rh0rh0r..hhiieezz..results lagi 2 hari beb.. gentar..
dunno where t0 pr0ceed to next..miss my fwens s0 much sey..havent met them since pr0m..
tts like 2 months ag0..heiz...bafdae c0ming s0on!!! dengar fiza! nysha! ijah! heheheh!!! k n0w.. ill gif more updates ltr h0r..wee hee!!

one dae leave

2004-07-26T14:54:00.000+08:00

hellew..its been weeks since i last wrote my last entry..ive been bz lately..skola n stuff..well..im running a fever..since fridae..on mc todae..wondering wad the rest are doing now..aniwae..hhmm..where shall i start??oh ya..went to youth park last saturdae..it was kewl.. budden hor..tink i kindda hooked on one of the D-unit crew..heeiizz..wad a boring noon..gong to tm to collect my hp at cs..oh ya...aid came down wif a chicken pox lately..2 weeks break frm skola n der he is..wanting to go back to skola asap..wait till he noes wad sec skola life is..ive been logging on to my msn lately n gezzy wad...ive been chatting wif pple i dun noe..hehhee..
most of them frm fwenster..gotta change my gallery soon liow..dadidum..didamdidam..hhmm..okie lor..gotta g0 check my mails..

he mailed me..

2004-07-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

a,kum... thxs 4 da sweet meaningful msg... its
nt dat i dun wan msg or contact u bt i juz dun
wan anymore trouble happen around again.. i
regret 4 it to happen to us bt wat can i say...
its fated.. mabbe.. onli he noe it.. the truth
is im still single,free n etc.. mabbe both my
sis n her influence r too strong dat u.... dunno
lah.. im sad 2 let u go or lost u... dats y 4 me
da onli tink is too kip numd n deaf ear.. njoy
my work n spent time by my ownself... newae wish
u all the best n tk cr no matter wer n wen..
finali.... word i long 2 say 2 u.. gd nite n
imish u sayang..................

yep..tt was wad i got frm him..k..i dunno if he reallie mean it..i gez its juz one wae fer him to make me feel better..and gez wad??he asked me to go to his chalet??waliow..the next ting i noe is tt ill be left wif only flesh..aniwae..watching doc..later!

a moment like tis

2004-06-27T11:55:00.000+08:00

hahah..im tired..dread..werking todae..skool bukak bsk..hiez..b bak at 12am todae..niwae alison,(the one wif the monkee-ugliee ears)(she kols hersef monkee..suits her)tt bitch frm chij katong msged me tru fwenster..she sae im not good enuff fer azwan tts why he doesnt wan me.the ting is..i dowan him....second tink is..hes all over me now n im definately not into him..perasaan la guys thezse daes..suker nak main dgn perasaan pompan..susahla tis world..susah nak carik mr rite..yeah..everyones finding the man of their dreams..me?? MALAS.. dun tink hes out der-yet..im still yet to haf fun..hahaha..

wakakaka

2004-06-26T21:24:00.000+08:00

dearie bloggie..i went out wif grandad tadi..makan swensens..per0t b0ncit..niwae im werking bsok..omars gonna pick me up..naik motor.. hhmm..hes reallie not giving up..i told him b4..we juz gonna b fwens.. i dowanna give him false hopes..aniwae..hes a great pal..okok..kepala pening..later..

why me?

2004-06-25T21:56:00.000+08:00

i don understand why..memories keep flashing back..how am i suppose to lead a new life??dates??no wae..im tru wif it..ive had enuff..wen i start trusting guys,tings always go these wae..majidah..wad haf i got mysef into??or mayb its tyme fer me to pull up my socks n start revising??mann..nobody sae life is perfect..tears flowing frm my eyes..sign of saddness..im redi fer seriousness n commitment but guys these daes..they seem to still wanna enjoy life wif handful of bitches tugging al0ng wif them..watever..i miss him..f0..dun need him..wtf..
its fizah's bdae todae..suppossed not to tell her tt i dedicated a bdae song fer her tru puurfect 10 bt ended up asking"eh..lagu utk bdae song fizah dah klua" yeshh..told my own secrect out..i hope shes doing fine by now...aniwae..its been oredi been a week since i was sick..and i am still..these coughs n pain on my tummie juz wun go..im going to d doc tmro..haha..missed a part..Mr Lau blanje pizza n kfc tadi...w0w..
bezz..hehehe..he not lokek ar..a verrie good art teacher..tak sia sia dpt him although moz teachers d0n reallie get along wif him..okok..gotta go..ill get u updated...

i shdn't have....

2004-06-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

dear blogspot....
i shdn't haf fall fer k..my gudness...all his swit toks..i ddnt tot he'd lie to me..well..i received his msg tis morning..
wanna noe wad??he said not to bother him animore..hes going to engage wif d..fer a moment i cdnt tink wad was going on..tt was it?? he koled me dear..sayang..and all those mushy2 stuffs..i enjoyed his company..had hopes..but hes going to b engaged wif d..i shud haf known earlier..wish i cud turn back tyme..
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it triggered my heart..

2004-06-21T18:54:00.000+08:00

im not sure where to begin..all i wanted was to apologise but all i got was a pile of shit..it all started wen i befriended k..he told me he broke up wif his gf and of course..kalo maidah tahu he got gf p0n,its not tt i wud wanna contact him..BUT his sister told me hes in a relationship..his sis msged me..asked if im idah..i replied.. yes i am..apologising bout how i behaved laz nite..i tot d person hu msged me last nite was k's x..gez wad was her reply??"takder lelaki lain ke kau nak msg?let me get tis straight,r u d one hu msged him first or hes d one hu msged u first?tak abis2 nak menghancurkan kebahagiaan org lain.remember watever u do to others,u will get it twice..im sure u dun wan 2 end up as a jande one dae" the other one was "wat do u wan actuallie frm him?i dun wan to be mean bt it seems like ure some kind of a bitch.im sure a gal like u got lots of guys..so y bother him?wat do u wan frm him?"
well..firstly..me and k..we r onli FRENS..mayb more but definately not in a relationship..secondly..he told me hes single..thirdly..im not a bitch..i dun go around sleeping wif guys..and fourthly..i dowan anything frm him..WE HAVENT EVEN MEET EACH OTHER!!!!!! we onli gotto noe less then a month ago..im upset..mad..dissappointed..i dunno why there are tears flowing but i didnt tot things will go tis far..i didnt take k frm d..i dunno wad else to do..i cant take tis animore....he told me bout his police tinggy stuffs which i am oways interested in..and i tink i got oni one solution..tt is to break the frienship apart..i feel so sorrie fer putting k in a difficult position and i understand family members c0mes first..i treasure the company on the phone wif him..
k,if ure reading tis..i tink its the best fer the 2 of us..i dowanna get humiliated animore..if ur family reallie tinks ure better off wif d,den i gez u shud werk tings out wif her..all the best..by the way...tankx..tankx fer giving me all those false hopes..
p/s: nysha,fizah..anyone..pls do not ask me how i am tmro in skewl ok??
i dowanna tink bout it..hurts so much..but ill b ok..
okies..snappie moments with my dearie fwens..

Tis..baru abis gelek2..penat and panas at the same tyme..and tt was the tyme i danced with mohd noor the arsehole

Youth dae 2004...

a moment like this..bla bla bla

2004-06-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

hi..gosshh..im sick!! ive got dry cough n ders like a lump in my throat..ish..i wen out wif nysha,fizah,deputy doc n jay tadi..went out to buy daddie a cake..hhmm..skoling tmro..im so not in d mood now..
im not reallie sure wads happening between me n k..seems like his sister doesnt like me..i wun b surprised if it turns out tt his whole family doesnt like me..wadsoever..we're (fwens) aniwae.dunno la..kindda give up on tis relationship tinggy..i wanna be happie..oways..heheheh..aniwae..ive got nutting to do now..oh mann!!
dance..juz miss it..i dunno if anis's grp merging wif mine..heart jewls wan my grp to join his..dunno la..dowanna tink bout tt first..gotta goyang2 first..wakakkakaka...aniwae..dunno nak go skewl ke tak..mayb cabut.den go beach or sumtink..boring liow..hhmm...
hhmm..hhmm..damn..im weak oredi..im tired.....

Oiik makcik..BanguN!

2004-06-19T13:43:00.000+08:00

haiyoh..pple going town todae..me gotta jager this 2 ekor bdk pat umah..parents n sis werking..responsibility drop to me..heeiizz...penat aku kemas umah..nasib baik takyah masak..boring nye..nysha nari overnite at my place..nysha..mesti kec0h punye si miget tu..hehehee...nysha!!fly away..???hehehehe..talked on d fon wif k tadi..sweet guy..like toking to him..verrie comfy..and hes out to his aunts' place n im llike mengadap computer..dunno wad else to do..
hhmm..hot weather..nak klua p0n mcm malas..heiz..budak nie...aniwae..biler la nak start dance??kindda mizz dancing..
gtg go now..aid's crying..OOuuttZZzz

Let it burn..

2004-06-18T21:17:00.000+08:00

im tired..got art tadi..heizz..tmros' a sat..feel like going out.. bowing..totally bowing..hey..im moving on..realised no point in waiting fer him if hes found sum0ne else..fizah..my bez buddy..im reallie sorrie fer her..i hope shes doing ok now..her relationship on d rocks..i reallie hope shes strong to keep up wif the fact tt apeks' been cold towards her..i miss DANCING!!! well..anis told me her grp haf got a dance sgow tmro..dunno if i shd go..nysha's going out wif aid..sweet couple..they going 2 yrs soon..happie fer them..
azwan didnt kol me fer 2 nitex now..tink hes happie wif the one hes wif..sumtimes i juz dunno y do guys cum n go..or izzit me??hhmm..well..well..well..i gez i shd let everything burn n start a fresh life..yeah!!
hehehe...kwang kwang kwang..gootta go eat..per0t sudah bersuara..
~oouuttZZ..

My life

2004-06-17T18:17:00.000+08:00

Heizz..todae's ma first entry..came back frm skewl..cabut siang nari..mendak sak..hari hari skolah..mum got a new job..wish her ol d bez lor..sek tukar2 kerja je..hope she settling down soon.Well..well..
majidah..majidah..im not sure how am i supposed to lead a cheerful life now..
ruzaini(balestier)..tt assbag..he told his fwens im totally krazze fer him..get real mann!YUX!! tak tahu malu pey jantan..dah la kem0t nak mmposshh..aniwae..i tot i will settle down wif azwan..he was der fer me wen i needed him..oways lending d shoulder to lean on..he asked me once but i rejected..not bcoz i dowan him..bt bcoz i wasnt totally redi fer a relationship..i needed space to get over ruzaini..but he said opportunities cum once in a lifetime n i missed it..he's now going after sumone else..im not sure if its my lost..lucky i haf fwens hu are der to support me..hhmm..i avoided his kols last nite,thinking i will get over him but i kindda miss him more..but its owite..ill get over it soon..aarrgghh!!art!my guudness..oh mann..i reli haf to finish my art project man..this holidae..mcm skolah biase je..ader sampai mlm2 buter lak tu..heizz...tired..nak zZzzZZzzz